So today I have had a sense of calm that I haven't had for awhile. While the past weeks have had it's challenges, the space today I am in is to rest, to stop fighting and embrace this neutral zone. I believe this is a good step. I typically have the tape running in my head that "you can't steer a ship that's not moving", so I have found myself attempting to move forward, that is, trying to figure out the what's next. It inevitably ends with lots of good thoughts and no follow through, a continued fog.
For now I am content. Looking forward to celebrating Emily's birth this week, being with family, finding some books to read, putting pieces in the puzzle, listening, waiting, praying.
