Thursday, January 31, 2013

Thursday Thoughts



The term “authentic” has become a familiar buzz word in today’s society.  It is a word that we want to embrace, especially in a time when you wonder if there is any honesty rather than people simply trying to advance their own personal gain or political agenda.  It has become disheartening to see so much distrust of leadership in the corporate world, the government, and even in our own communities, families, and churches. 

There is a keen awareness that all is not right in our world or in our personal lives.  We continue to mask the feelings, imperfections, fears, pain, as well as the passions, and hope that speak truth into our lives and give us courage to become authentic.  But what does authenticity really look like?  Do we even know what is inside of us?  Are there role models that represent an authentic life?  Is authenticity something we just aspire to, but never achieve?

What does it mean for leadership?  Does the definition of authentic change when you lead others?  How do you reconcile when, where, how, and to whom it is okay to be transparent and vulnerable?  Then what happens when we miss the mark, do we become inauthentic?  Does this change our credibility? 

For many, even those we admire most, appear to have it all together yet hide behind walls that have been built to keep out the feelings of inadequacy, fear of failure, longings to belong and have meaning.  We numb the feelings and gradually we drift so far away that we may not recognize the lack of feelings in our lives.  We put off an aroma of perfection, that we have no flaws.  So the point in which we come face to face with this façade often comes at a breaking point.  There becomes a recognition that the old tapes of perfection, performance, and protection of self need to change.   

So how would this change us? What would leadership look like if we lived with courage, compassion, and connections with others?  Might “authentic” be more about living without all the answers, peeling away the layers to discover who we are, naming our imperfections so that we can invite others into our journey towards wholeness, authenticity?

These are my beginning thoughts for more writing this semester.  I am grateful for a moral and ethical leadership class that encourages me to keep seeking and learning beyond just my head.  I am thankful for a professor who was excited about a topic of authenticity.  I continue to feel like I am in the right place, yet still needing to learn that I don't need to have everything figured out when people ask me what I am going to do with this.  Trying to take this one day at a time and trust God is preparing the way for the what's next.

Thursday, January 3, 2013

Finally

What a glorious morning.  For the past two weeks it has been a flurry of activity.  Celebrating Emily's 17th birthday, preparing for Christmas, shopping, baking, visiting family, helping with the community Christmas meal, quilting with a friend, basketball practices and games, volunteering at Ten Thousand Villages, helping Em get ready for a New Year's eve party, more baking for the youth hangout at our house, the usual laundry and dishes...all of it good.  I have increasingly been longing for this morning.  Sitting in the recliner, watching the bird activity at the feeders, sipping tea, looking at the stack of papers/books that I need to begin reading for the start of the new semester.  Quiet. 

I wonder if this is how God experiences us - constantly busy and yet longing for us to just sit for awhile in His presence.  In the quiet, gazing at the beauty of His creation, being open to and aware of His love and peace that can penetrate deep within.

This is one of my favorite songs by Kari Jobe.  A great way to start (or end) the day.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NI_1YliutzA
The more I seek you, the more I find you
The more I find you, the more I love you

I wanna sit at your feet
Drink from the cup in your hand.
Lay back against you and breath, feel your heart beat
This love is so deep, it's more than I can stand.
I melt in your peace, it's overwhelming